August 18th, 2021

“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.

I really feel that I can relate to this quote. My depressive times in the past years have been horrifying. When we feel this way, we get so into our own head and sleep is the escape from our thoughts and our life that we don’t want to be woken up to live. It is a very hard thing to go through. It is lonely, empty, hopeless, and can be dangerous. Tomorrow is another day though, right? I’ve recently been trying to keep myself as busy as I can but have only really succeeded by keeping occupied from my couch. But that is a step and for that, I am proud. We have to celebrate small victories, just like we have to set small goals. Don’t overwhelm yourself and try to do everything at once. Take steps to help you learn lessons and become stronger. A step from keeping yourself busy in the same spot would be to maybe take a nice walk around the block or at the park. Put your headphones in and play your favorite song or a maybe a podcast. I’ve noticed that listening to podcasts about my disorder and other mental health information has helped me understand better and has motivated me to move. And if you don’t want to hear it, just take that walk and take in the sounds of nature.

August 14th, 2021

“You’ve been through a thousand things in your life people don’t even know about. You’ve experienced things that have shook you, changed you, broke you, built you and taught you to be stronger than you every thought you had the ability to be. And you are who you are for all of it. So the next time someone judges you based on a small part of what they see and how they interpret that, remember who you are, remember how much you’ve overcome and smile and keep walking because you don’t have a SINGLE thing to prove to anyone else. You’ve already proved so much to yourself who muddled through storms that people didn’t even see because of how you carried yourself.” – Kirsten Corley @moonomens on IG

What a powerful quote. We all can get completely knocked down. But we get back up and we try again. Failure is not a bad thing. We need to fail to succeed most of the time. If you’re reading this, I’m sure you can relate. You have nothing to prove to anyone but yourself. Again, the outside opinion haunting us can drive us right back down but we have to try our absolute best to get up and give it another go. Be proud of your journey, even if you’ve only reached the first step so far. We may look vulnerable and we may share negative feelings on social media. I understand you. The bad could be easier to share than the good sometimes. Even if we have shared what we go through in life with mental struggles, or with life without mental illness, that doesn’t mean we do in fact share it all. We still carry maybe some kind of trauma, grief, disappointment, mistakes we’ve made, friends we’ve lost, even positive moments in life.. we all go through our own thoughts and troubles and successes.. So be proud of yourself for walking in your shoes and getting through it. Because again, you are all that matters. xoxo

August 4th, 2021

You have been criticizing yourself for years, and it hasn’t worked. Try approving of yourself and see what happens.” – Louise L. Hay

I am a big fan of Louise Hay. While I was in the hospital, I read a book of hers called You Can Heal Your Life and found it to be informative and very interesting. I think I may read it again along with her Love Yourself Workbook now that we’re talking about it! I loved reading the above quote because it cannot be more true. Giving ourself the credit we deserve can be so much harder than criticizing ourselves. As Julie Roberts said in Pretty Woman, “When people put you down enough you start to believe it, the bad stuff is easier to believe, you ever notice that?” Read that again. It i SO TRUE! Let’s all start to give ourselves the validation we deserve. There is so much good in so many of us. We just don’t see it. But if you want to take advice from anyone, Louise is definitely the one. Read this quote and remind yourself to approve of yourself and also that the constant criticism in fact has not worked. If you want to listen to anyone, it’s also Louise. Her words are so powerful and the connection with her is real. Oh and by the way, if you struggle falling asleep at night, try youtubing her evening meditations and you’ll be sleeping like a baby. There are multiple. I love every one. For someone who can’t sleep without meds and also struggles to calm my mind when I hit the pillow, Louise always manages to put me out within minutes.